Annie Cp and Me

what is normal? who is normal? I am normal! I believe just because I have a disability doesn't mean im not normal, doesn't mean im special and it definetly doesn't mean im weird!!  to mde it just means im just different. howevder there is days in my life when I do remember that I have a disabillty and I remember I am different and there may be things in this world that I may find difficult, people might treat you different act different but to that I say stuff it I rather be different than the same, theres no fun in being like everyone else. i try my best to do things that others do for instance i like to swim so i joined a swimming club called chirk dragons, which means i swim with fully able bodied swimmers, i even take part in galas however they are para galas!  another things i do is dofe! and jesus it’s probably one of the hardest things i’ve ever done but you know i flipping loved it, i’ve done bronze and silver however wasn’t able to do the end expedition on silve...

i’m really struggling atm with the weight gain, i’m looking at pictures from before the recovery and just wishes that was my weight now because i feel fat and ugly and i feel like no one understands how i feel, i’m just tired of people saying “she’s got better” because i really haven’t. just because your putting food down my throat does not mean i don’t feel guilty after every bite. just because i gain weight, doesn’t mean i want to skip meals and make myself ill. the thing with anorexia is yes it’s the weight but it’s also your mental because it does boil down to your mental well being and that’s how it all started. just talking about it makes me feel sick. and i just want to go back to when no one knew about it. and where i was happy, under weight but happy. however then i think to myself, were you happy? constantly thinking about food calories, fat content, no no you weren’t. and yes  scared of gaining weight but then i think to myself and think about my future, gaining weight d...

So on the 8th of january 2015 it was time for me to have a major operation, safe to say i was  nervous. safe to say i wasn’t the easy patient going in because i’ve always been scared of hospitals and in that day all i thought was i’m going under and won’t be out of here for six while weeks! So after a lot of tears I went under, the operation took around 4 hours, the operation took place in order to stretch my leg muscles and put metal in my hips to make my knee a little more straight when I walk and not so much on my toes as much, I even got a little Botox in my calf (I know call me Kim k). the first thing I remember seeing when I woke up was my mum next to me lying on a bed because apparently she fainted because I look grey/green (lol), the second thing I remember is a doctor giving me a certificate, and then the third thing I remember and the scariest of them all is not being able to feel my legs. Then that was it the start of the six weeks of hard work to basically build the...

The recovery from anorexia is hard because you got to become the normal weight. They put you on a meal plan, the meal plan is a way to wage how many calories you have per day and it's not just food it's drink to because the first stage of your recovery is rehydration weignt, that's when the fluids you drink like orange juice and milkshakes, rehydrate things like your liver and kidneys as they have been starved for so long. So my tip their is don't be scared of gaining weight the first weeks of your recovery because all you got to think is that it's just your body rehydrating. So the plan consists of: Breakfast with fruit  Snack normally fruit and drink Dinner with drink and fruit  Snack normally a protein bar  Tea  Pudding  For me, I struggle with the snack because my Annie affected me by I would eat small breakfast lunch and tea and have nothing in between so to me the snacks are extra food that I haven't had before and therefore is a struggle. The breakfast is...

so first of all im not even sure what to write on my blog, so if you want a leave a comment on what you would like to see :) . so this blog has only been going a couple of days and ive already had over 100 page views so thank you so much!! If you don't already know ive started a Instagram page so check that out!! so now lets get into the blog... CP stands for cerebral palsy which is a brain injury that cause weakness in your legs, you mainly get it if you were born prematurely or a complication at birth. approximately 1800 children are diagnosed with cerebral palsy a year, and sadly in 2004 that was my year. for me I wasn't diagnosed till I was 2 as my parents started to realise I wasn't developing as much as "normal" babies do. living with cerebral palsy, what is it like? well to be honest its just like any other life, I still go to school, I still do homework, I still do jobs round the house, and I still get moaned at by my parents. the only thing that to ...

welcome!!! heyyyy I cant believe I've actually started a blog, I've been debating weather to start a blog for months but then I was like why not! so welcome to my blog...Annie Cp and Me. hi my names Lydia, im 15 and gotta say the first 15 years of my life haven't been the easiest i've definetly had my ups and downs  so guess what... im going to write about them and hopefully it wont only help me but hopefully help the people reading it. I was born 12 weeks early meaning when I was born it led to many complications which meant i was in hospital for a while afterwards. when i was two i was diagnosed with cerable palsy (Cp), which caused weaknesss in my leg muscles. Apart from that i lived a normal life, yes i had to do physio and wear splints but i was determined that i wouldn’t let that stop me. However a couple of weeks ago i was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, an eating disorder ( annie is my nickname for it), a disorder that made me not want food and skip meal...