Annie Cp and Me

cerebral palsy. what does everyone think when they hear the word cerebral palsy they probably think wheel chairs, but that’s what frustrates me because to me someone with a disability is just someone who struggles more with things, but doesn’ give up, just needs to try a bit harder, fight a bit harder but gets the same goal as everyone else, the goal sometimes could mean a lot more because of that little bit harder they have to fight!  my aim with this blog is to break down the stereotypes that go along with having cerebral palsy or having a disability in general, i want us all to be treated the same but also for people to see the differences and the fights we have to go through and to acknowledge them as amazing not odd, not weird but amazing!  my aim is that i  want you all to next time you see someone in a wheelchair is to not stare, not cross the road, not point but to smile, start a conversation or just act normal, because i believe that’s all people with disabilities want is to b

healthy weight, that can seem like a swear word in people with a ED eyes. but to people without an ED it sounds like a goal, an achievement, and even though when you get to the weight it may not feel like it, it will be. i am reaching the point where i’m either at or near the health weight range and my body is showing signs of recovery. the thing with a healthy weight is that there isn’t a certain weight for everyone it all depends on you height and age and gender, so someone who’s 6ft will be different to someone who is 5ft, you’ve always go to keep that in mind, you can’t constantly think that you always got to weigh the same as your friends because it doesn’t work like that. the thing that confuses me with becoming a healthy weight is that, i used to think that ones you became a healthy weight your brain would “click” and you would be able to eat whatever you want without feeling guilty, however i’m not sure if that’s true because with me that’s not the case and that’s what i find s

what is normal? who is normal? I am normal! I believe just because I have a disability doesn't mean im not normal, doesn't mean im special and it definetly doesn't mean im weird!!  to mde it just means im just different. howevder there is days in my life when I do remember that I have a disabillty and I remember I am different and there may be things in this world that I may find difficult, people might treat you different act different but to that I say stuff it I rather be different than the same, theres no fun in being like everyone else. i try my best to do things that others do for instance i like to swim so i joined a swimming club called chirk dragons, which means i swim with fully able bodied swimmers, i even take part in galas however they are para galas!  another things i do is dofe! and jesus it’s probably one of the hardest things i’ve ever done but you know i flipping loved it, i’ve done bronze and silver however wasn’t able to do the end expedition on silve

i’m really struggling atm with the weight gain, i’m looking at pictures from before the recovery and just wishes that was my weight now because i feel fat and ugly and i feel like no one understands how i feel, i’m just tired of people saying “she’s got better” because i really haven’t. just because your putting food down my throat does not mean i don’t feel guilty after every bite. just because i gain weight, doesn’t mean i want to skip meals and make myself ill. the thing with anorexia is yes it’s the weight but it’s also your mental because it does boil down to your mental well being and that’s how it all started. just talking about it makes me feel sick. and i just want to go back to when no one knew about it. and where i was happy, under weight but happy. however then i think to myself, were you happy? constantly thinking about food calories, fat content, no no you weren’t. and yes  scared of gaining weight but then i think to myself and think about my future, gaining weight doesn